I said "Yes" to the dress!

I have a little over a year of not writing on my blog ... and honestly, I was a little afraid to do so because most of the things I have been going through are related to my wedding plans.

A part of me felt that I was going to write again until I was married and with joy I could tell you all "and here is my husband!" and I thought that by telling details of the "before" I could, in a way, sabotage my "promise". Something like when your mother tells you that if you tell someone the dream you had last night, it will not come true (that’s what my mom tells me when I have a dream I really liked lol). That lack of faith and fear that if you give testimony of what happened before without having an outcome and at the end it doesn't go as you said it would, people could think God is a liar and you look dumb. As if we were powerful enough to sabotage God's plans for our lives...

No matter what happens or what doesn’t, God's plans are going to be fulfilled just as He has said He would.

So, with this in mind, I wanted to tell you a story that might be more attractive to my girly friends ...

The wedding dress story!

I think we all girls dream about it ... without a doubt it is perhaps one of the most important things when you get married. Surely your Pinterest board is full of dresses and some have already memorized the names of the best designers.

After I got engaged, that was the first thing on my list… it hadn't even been a month and I went ahead and tried on dresses. I thought the shopping process was going to be exciting and fun. A perfect "girl’s day” with tears of joy, as seen on the bridal shows on TV and the Instagram stories of those who are about to get married.

But in my case, it was nothing like that ... at the end of the day, I had tears of frustration and I was more stressed than happy.

It was not exactly the experience that I had imagined and I began to think that maybe looking for my dress was going to be more of an overwhelming negative experience.

When I was little, I asked my mom about her dress and she told me that she had lent it a couple of years ago and that in the hustle of life the person had lost it. I remember being sad when thinking of that because deep down, I would have liked to wear something at my wedding that she wore on her special day. Maybe modify her dress or put on her veil or some important and significant detail like that, but in my case it could not be possible. So, I had the idea to recreate her bouquet.

That same week I dusted off my parents’ wedding album so I could take some of photos and bring them to the florist so that when the time came, I could ask for something exactly like that.

While looking at the photos I noticed something and saw that my mother's dress had an incredible resemblance to one of the dresses that I had tried on that ‘not-so-great’ day and that it was without a doubt the one that I liked the most.

That same day I went back to the boutique to try it on for a second time and bought it. It's the modern and modified version of the dress my mom got married in 34 years ago. It has all the main details.

I remember saying to my mom, "I think God took your dress away to modify it and hung it up at this store in El Salvador just for me to find it."

Although perhaps the process of looking for my dress was not what I had wanted, He at the end took that bad experience and turned it into something beautiful, special and with a meaning.

At this moment I am still at home, trapped, wanting to be with the love of my life. We got “stuck” at the last phase of our process and our dream of starting a life together has taken an unexpected pause. The "we were so close" hurts and has been frustrating and has felt in a way unfair. Many couples are already reunited and we are still waiting ... things have not gone according to the plan. Our plan.

In the midst of my frustration, this week God reminded me that He only writes beautiful stories.

Perhaps the process you are in is not that "dream day" you wanted but I truly believe that in the end there will be that "perfect dress" for you.

I don't know what your situation is, but if your story is not beautiful yet, it will be. He is still writing… and it will be a story full of His love. Full of Him.

"Believe that you have already received everything you are asking for in prayer, and you will get it."

Mark 11:24

A… I can't wait to marry you.